For once we are all in the same boat somehow. It is a special moment in time to be a part of. We all react differently to change and get triggered in different ways. I have for sure felt like I want to control the moment and the outcome. But we have to let go.
I like having many different projects going at the same time. I thrive and I get stressed. perhaps we need a little bit of stress to get going. Don´t we all have it every day?
For me the lesson is, to let go and rise above fear, anxiety or shame. Being lost is the never ending wheel of "should" and "must". Instead, start creating from a place of inner peace and love. Spread you light, kindness and compassion. First of all to yourself and then to anyone who enters your reality. Live in a higher vibration where fear doesn't touch you
Plant the seeds of how you want your reality to be. For me it is without stress. Tomorrow is the Re launch and opening event of my restaurant, Samadhi. Dinda and I have been cooking in the kitchen from morning until the sun dropped. We both have passion for what we create. I had a moment where stress left me today and the creating was nurturing me. It's beautiful to cook something to the best of your abilities and love the taste of the first bite.
From isolation times I also learned that I love planting, seeing them grow and cook up a meal or make a magic elixer kombucha. It is healing to eat your own produce. That's how I want to live my life from now on. My dream is to create an of grid paradise of a home and just thrive there. Doing what I love and emerged in nature.
I have to remind myself that I am already living my dream. Just stand in it and be fully in the moment. Because it will always be changing. The moon is now full and so have I completed a new circle of change. After this re opening of the restaurant & villas, it's time for a Holiday. To a place just like in my dream, emerged in nature with waterfalls and rice fields as your backyard. Living of the land and nurturing the bodymind. True bliss, samadhi.